Radha-Govinda, I did not take
my darsana of You on my new schedule.
Baladeva suggested I take fifteen minute breaks
and do fifteen minutes of looking at You.
It sounded good, but I
had no time to do it
because I was falling back.
I will have time to look at You
later in the day when there is
no pressure on to say japa.
Surely I will get the chance
to look at You
because You are so splendid
in Your just-changed
orange and red
and splendid crowns.
I am grateful You reside with me in Viraha Bhavan.
Baladeva said he actually
suggested I take a “5-minute” break
after every four rounds
to look at Radha-Govinda in darsana.
Fifteen minutes would be too long:
it would result in an hour’s worth of darsana
which I cannot spare.
But I do want to see Them.