I have not been trying hard enough to chant in a rasika way. I am aware of that process, but somehow I thought that I had to first work very basically on the mechanics of hearing the holy name with my outer ear. I may not be wrong to have been thinking like this because I have been so negligent. And although I have been reading the Tenth Canto and books like _Prema-bhakti-candrika_, I have not been deliberately trying to mix that reading with my chanting.
Also, I have not been cultivating a desire to reside in Vrindavana when I chant. I need to get out of the material locality and meditate on Vrindavana. I want to chant in Vrindavana, at least mentally.
(_Begging for the Nectar of the Holy Name_)