Poem for Apr 26



Japa Poem

I want to be clear about my lack of remorse. It is a spiritual poverty not to feel lowly and fallen. I didn’t learn that on this retreat. But something happened here, I just don’t know what. At a certain point, I detected that my admission of poor chanting becomes unproductive. Am I whining or nagging myself? So I also try to see the good and cheer this fellow up.

Anyway, I am trying to achieve a permanent, surrendered position. I am not looking for psychological balance or blissful sensations. I am looking for simplicity and humility, sorrow that I am still waiting for Krishna to overpower me.

(_Begging for the Nectar of the Holy Name_)

JAPA POEM

I assess my remorse
over poor chanting.
There is a limit to
the benefit of bashing
oneself. It is good
to also encourage myself:
“I am looking for
simplicity and humility,
sorrow that I am waiting for Krishna
to overpower me.”